I am actually sitting here crying tears of frustration.

There are four people I have come to appreciate and respect on this journey in the literally nearly HUNDRED people that are a part of these two cases. Four people who I feel like I can count on and actually build a relationship with.

Foster Care Specialist
Therapist A
Service Coordinator A
Therapist J

Late last week I found out that Service Coordinator A, Middle Boy's worker, had accepted another job. One down.

Today I found out that because of the type of therapy Middle Boy needs to fulfill his court requirements he can no longer meet with Therapist A. This means that we will no longer have family therapy with her. Two down.

Just now I found out that Foster Care Specialist has accepted another job in her agency and won't be working with us anymore. This one sucks the most. She has made me laugh when I feel like crying and brought me back to reality when my expectations didn't match what the system was capable of. She has been my biggest cheerleader and most importantly my friend.

As I sit here and write this I now know EXACTLY how kids in the system feel. I get why they don't bother to build relationships. As I sit here right now I wonder if I will feel like making the effort anymore. Honestly I don't have the energy anymore.

I don't like this...not one bit. What is next God?