These days there is a common theme in my life coming from nearly everywhere I turn. That theme is this...when do you have time or take time for yourself?

Foster Care Specialist's only comment on my foster care evaluation was that I don't use enough respite.

Friends keep telling me that I don't get enough me time.

A friend pointed out today that her observation is that there are very few places where I don't have to be constantly "on".

I'll admit it. I don't take much time for me. Virtually none. I feel guilty asking for respite help, because I signed up for this...not my friends and family. I feel guilty, because I don't want the boys to think I don't love them or want to spend time with them. It is a pain to find new sitters for just a couple of hours away from home. The two I use are amazing, but they have lives, too. Everyone who comes in contact with the boys has to be background checked and that's a hassle. I guess I just feel like alone time for me isn't worth all the work it creates for me and so many other people.

I have to tip my hat to single parents. What they do day in and day out is nothing short of amazing.

I'm going to pray about this topic. It is such a recurring theme that I think a message is there, but I have to come to terms with it.

Pray for me, too.