I hate myself right now.

I hate how angry I am and how I am not fun to be around. I hate how stressed out everything makes me. I hate how the littlest things make me come unglued and how much it is damaging my relationship with the boys.

This morning I am wondering if I can do this anymore. If maybe this isn't what God wants me to do. If I am doing something wrong. I want to give up and walk away...then maybe it wouldn't be so hard.

I am being U G L Y and I don't know how to change.