I am so sick of arguing with Middle Boy.  So sick of it.

This morning I told him I was sorry he would have nothing to do at church during second service while I had a meeting and Younger Boy had youth group.  I was sincere.  I was sorry.  I know that he doesn't like having nothing to do.

He thought I was mocking him so he EXPLODED.  Why don't I ever take responsibility for my actions?  I apologize, but I never mean it.  My actions never change. 

I can hear my old foster care specialist saying to me..."remember when he is saying these things to you he feels them about himself". 

Sometimes that helps. 

I am so sick of the constant verbal attacks.  Sure he is a teenager, but he is over the top with his rudeness and need to be in control.  Over the top.

If I point it out...EVER....not just in the moment I can expect complete escalation which results in name calling and swearing.  I don't like to go there.

Today I had to walk away from him in the hallway at church, because I wanted to cry.

Prayers this gets better.