I had to be at the airport at 4:45AM for a flight that boarded at 5:00AM.

I got up at about 3:45AM after getting about two hours of sleep.  Not two continuous hours.  More like two additive hours of disjointed sleep.

I tried to wake Middle Boy to tell him I was leaving, but he was out.

When I tried to wake him he CRIED....SOBBED, but just kept "sleeping".  I KNOW this was dissociative.  I know more than likely I triggered him.  He was abused during the night.

I wish he didn't insist on me waking him to tell him good-bye.  It is so hard to watch it.

Younger Boy told me good night the last night.  So I am all good there.

See you late tomorrow night boys.  I love you!!