Middle Boy is really needing his mama tonight. 

Recently I heard the phase "in hand" relating to trauma kids.  Basically it means the kiddo needs to be close enough to actually be holding your hand to start to trust.

Middle Boy needs to be "in hand" right now.

Literally the only place I can be out of eye sight of him is the bathroom.

He moved everything he needs for overnight into my room a little while ago.  He will be sleeping in there tonight.

Me being out of town was really an attachment set back for him. 

Tonight that is being coupled with a five police cars, a fire truck, an ambulance, and the medical helicopter down the street from our house.

Both boys have been flashing back.  It hasn't been good.

Slumber party in mama's room.

Now...pray for sleep.