Middle Boy…
The words don’t come so easy anymore.  I don’t know what to say.  I don’t know what to do.  I am so frustrated with life in our home.  I don’t know how to change it, because the only thing I can really change is my own attitude toward the things that are going on.
I’m tired.  Tired of being disrespected.  Tired of being lied to.  Just tired.
When I became a parent I didn’t expect it to be easy, but I did expect to be respected…at least part of the time.  I don’t feel that anymore.
I honestly feel like you have given up.  Completely given up.  Maybe you are challenging me to prove I want you.  I don’t know what else I can do to prove it.  You make me feel like what I have to offer, the person who I am, isn’t good enough for you.
I know every single thing in your history would make you believe you can’t trust me and so this is HARD.  I don’t know if you are even capable of trusting me. 
What I do know is that I love you.  It breaks my heart we can’t get along and you have given up on us as a family.
The decision is yours…I am done fighting you.  I love you and I don’t want you to go, but I also love you enough to know I want you to be happy…happier than you are now. 
Where will this leave us?  I don’t know.  God will take care of us both…whatever the outcome of this season in our lives.
I love you, Middle Boy.
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