I have never in my life cried as hard as I did this morning.  I think all of the roller coaster of emotion of the last four months finally caught up with me.  It was also foster care/adoption morning at church.  I wasn't sure I was even capable of going and doing it.

I was crying so hard I started to hyperventilate and then I threw up.  Pretty picture isn't it.  I didn't know you could cry that hard.  When I was finally able to take a deep breath and relax I was kind of relieved that I was able to let go of all of that emotion.  Generally speaking I hold most emotion in.

I feel better now.

Praises for being able to finally break down and cry and not having Younger Boy there when it happened.