Since I take an antidepressant I have a med check of my own every six months.  Today was the day.

I went in to see my doctor and she asked how I am doing.  The only way I could describe it is tired...very tired.

I have some other things going on, but nearly everything can be tied back to stress and lack of sleep. 

I told her about my last six months.  She said she is surprised I haven't been back in the hospital for dehydration and exhaustion. 

We didn't change anything.

She gave me some pretty strict doctor's orders.  I am to get two hours (one hour each time) to myself per week where I don't have to do ANYTHING.  Just relax...but don't sleep.  Just do something I want to do that is peaceful.  I am also to take 15 minutes to walk in the evenings so I can have some stress relief and sleep better at night.

I have to be honest...those two things stress me out a little.  I look at my schedule and wonder when I will have time.  She made me promise NOT to get up early to exercise, because lack of sleep is already an issue.  In order of priority she believes sleep is more important for me at this point than exercise, but she reserved the right to change the priority order.

I need to be held accountable for these things.  I just can't figure out how.

Prayers for me to figure out a way to get more sleep and some exercise and some "me" time.