Middle Boy didn't call after the visit yesterday.  I HATE that he is in control of when we talk.

When I left visitation yesterday he was visibly upset.  Now I am wondering if he is okay.  Is he back on suicide watch?  Did he just not have a chance to call?  Is he mad at me?  Did he decide that all of this isn't worth it?

I hope he calls today.  I know that God is protecting him.  I just have to focus on that...but it is hard.