Today during therapy we were talking about how I feel about the upcoming adoptions and the events of the last eighteen months.

Therapist M told me her observation about me is that I don't seem to take everything emotionally, but rather as a matter of fact.  She also talked about how one of my strengths is my ability to accept them where they are and to help them try to become healthier.  She also said the amount of self-education I have done to understand them has been important.

We talked about how I handle the things which make me sad or frustrated or hurt.  Generally speaking I stuff a lot of the emotion, but I cry.  Not every day, but every week for sure.  I get frustrated and have to take a minute.  Not every day, but most days.  I feel hurt by the things they say.  This is the hardest, because I know it isn't me they are mad at, but that doesn't mean it doesn't hurt sometimes.

She asked how I think I am doing as a parent.  I told her I think I am average.  She didn't agree with me, but we agreed to disagree.

She talked about how I have gotten them to talk to me about everything...literally everything.  She said she believes it is because I never freak out about anything they ask.  I just talk to them about it and give my perspective.  We have talked about a whole lot of things teenage boys don't talk to their moms about.  I love that about our relationship.

I am thankful for my relationship with her.  I love having the ability to bounce things off of her, because she knows the boys and she has been a wealth of information in the behaviors of foster kiddos.  I am blessed by having her as a therapist.

Praises for God giving me the skills I need to follow His will for my life and for putting the right support people to walk alongside me through this journey.